so is my 26 b-day in a few weeks and i feel i have done nothing with my life, i never had a many jobs in my life, i only been to college to do something i never really wanted to do but did it anyway as i had to as there wasnt anything else i could do, as i aint that smart at all.
i wish stuff would go better in my life for once, i had my sick pay stop as someone who isnt even a doctor said i didnt get the right number of point to keep haveing it, even there are other pepole on sick pay that just lie all the time and get away with it and here i am with a real mental problem and what do i get a kick in the fucking balls and told to find a job even though i am not mental fit for work at all but they dont give a shit about me, ill see how me sending them a letter goes and shit and see if i can show them that i am in fact have a mental problem.
so i am sat at home drinking water as i aint even want to eat atm, well hopefully be my home for now till i had to move out or be homeless lol one of them will happen i bet as when my life goes to shit it will all go to shit i bet, i was haveing a good week this week till i found out i had my sick pay stop, was going to even get some painting done on my space wolves but now i couldnt care less about them and the campaign i meant to be in atm, and that goes for my clubs drevick one too.
i just want stuff to go right for once but it will never happen for me at all as i feel like everything is out to get me till i am dead or some shit.
i was hopeing to save up for a airsofting gun so i could get my own gun and play a lot more but i wont be doing that at all, i might not ever go anymore no is no point i will, i dont the cash for it so who gives a shit about it.
i guess that just my life. to be shit till the day i past the fucking world and on to the next shit place for the rest of time is self.